In My Arms.

I don't think I could have ever been prepared for the emotions that come along with being a mom. It is amazing how it literally changes your day to day life 100%... nothing is about you anymore, because EVERYTHING revolves around a little munchkin who weighs meier 14lb. (Some of you are probably thinking "14 POUNDS!?" Hey, I was expecting this baby to come out that size, so I'd say we are doing pretty good.)

The hardest thing that I have had to deal with is just an underlying fear that something is going to happen to her. In everything that I do, I observe my surroundings before hand, thinking through any possible ramifications that might occur. (Even more so since the night when I was getting her in her pj's after a bath and grabbed the lotion bottle with a wet hand.... it slipped and clocked her sweet little cheek. She sobbed, I SOBBED, Ted came running cause he thought I had dropped her... ok you get the point.) What I am getting at is so amazing the innocence a child has. And it breaks my heart to know that I cannot physically guard her from hurt and pain forever. There is an amazing song from a group by the name of plumb called "In my arms" (it is in my playlist so you can listen to it if you want). I heard this song when I was pregnant with her and I thought it was beautiful, but the first time I listened to it after she was born I just sobbed! It totally descirbes how I feel. I am sure all you other mothers would agree.

I still cant grasp the fact sometimes that the Lord chose Ted and I to care for this little peanut. Such a HUGE responsibility, but the greatest privileged of my life thus far.

"In My Arms" - Plumb

Your baby blues
So full of wonder
Your curly cues
Your contageous smile
And as I watch
You start to grow up
All I can do is hold you tight

Knowing clouds will rage
And storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms

Story books full of fairy tales
Of kings and queens and the bluest skies
My heart is torn just in knowing
You'll someday see the truth from lies

Castles they might crumble
Dreams may not come true
But you are never all alone
Because I will always
Always love you